This week has been tough and it seems like I’m up during the night more than the day. I’m not mentally where I’m supposed to be, and that’s really messing me up. I’m behind in schoolwork, and I practically don’t even feel like trying anymore. I just feel like staying home for the rest of the year and sleeping in bed all day. Everything seems so impossible to complete with the mental state of mind I’m in. The smallest things seem like climbing mount everest. I mean today was okay because there was something to keep me occupied, but if there’s nothing to keep me occupied, I sit there and just start to think of everything that has brought me down this week. I realize I’m not myself, and I have no idea what to do about it. 
Maybe in time it’ll get better, but for now, I don’t know what to do. Where to start. How to solve each and every single problem I’m having now.
I’m missing so much class, it’s really not even funny.  

After a while, you just learn what’s done is done. You can’t go back and change anything and you can’t sit there and mope about everything that is wrong with your life. You just deal with what you’re given and work from there.  

allysonraewrites:

None of it matters anymore, and I’m done pretending that it does.